Fucked Up, in more ways than one.

I don't think any thing notable has happened since my last proper blog. This was until Thursday when I went to see Fucked up with The Shitty Limits and some other crappy band. For this gig I went to a Youth Center in Guilford, Surrey. Which was tiny and as you may be able to predict the gig was fucking mental. One of the best shows of my life hands down. They did a black flag cover which I went crazy for, and just made the show even better. Below a photo illiterates how fucking crazy this show was, I'm actually in the photo as well, well done if you can spot me!

Since then nothing exciting or interesting has really happened. All that has happened is me over-thinking the last 5 years and in some cases more, of my life. I released that I miss learning, and I'm not actually as stupid as I or other people think I am, and If I would have had help in the last few years of Secondary School, when I was severely Depressed (I'm not going to bullshit, I was seriously mentally ill) I could now the person I am capable of being. 

I also came to realize that I'm not and will never be completely fine, I'm always going to have this dark cloud over my head that will never completely go. Ive just go to get on with my life and make something of myself, which at the moment I'm not doing in the slightest. I also relised that during my childhood I wasn't as happy as I should have been, I think looking back I as depressed for alot lot longer than I have ever imagined. God, isn't mental health just a bundle of fucking fun?

I'm still Ill, I accept that, I just know how to cope. Listening to fast angry records, going to shows and writing in this blog helps me, so much. I can tell I'm tonnes better because things that would make me a crying mess before, hardly phase me, I'm well on the way to normality.