Armed With A Mind.

I haven't updated this in a while, and I apologize for that. The reason I haven't updated it is because Ive been petty busy with work/gigs and thusly I haven't had alot of spare time of my hands, so the spare time I do have, I normally use for sleeping. It appears that I haven't updated this since the NFG gig, I shall try to as through update as possible.

So yeh Ive been working alot, and it's going well and everyone seems to be pretty nice and chill, I'm still getting to grips with everything, but I'm pretty used to it now. My only real gripe with it is that, we never ever leave on time, which is fucking annoying as I'm pretty much giving them free labour.

So In the last couple of weeks I went to see Cancer Bates with Hexes and Dead Swans supporting. Now Dead Swans are one of my favorite UK Hardcore bands, so the chance to see them in a pretty small venue with hardly any crowd, wasn't a chance I could pass up (even though there was a Verse show on the other side of London). But yeh I love Dead Swans, and I was pretty much one of the only few people singing along, which led to having the mic more times that I can remember, awesome. Next up were Hexes who were in my opinion shit, and they seemed to have an invisible keyboard player which annoyed me. Then the brilliant Cancer Bats came on, now on record I'm not a massive fan, but live they are just brilliant brilliant fun, and that why I love them.

The Next now I went to was Have Heart, Carpathian, Cruel Hand and Khalo. The first band that went on was Khalo, who were utter utter shit, boreing deathcore that Ive seen done by 100 bands 100 times better. Then aussies Carpathian came on, who really pleased me as they were pretty good, need to have a proper listen to them. Next up were Cruel Hand who really impressed me, not your adverage hardcore band at all, I expect big things from the these boys. Then I made my way to the front for Have Heart, who are utterly utterly brilliant, despite all the mic proberlems and the gigs standing at the side of the stage, who got a sharp telling off, which made me laugh hard. I even got the mic given to me during "The Taste Of The Floor" which I was rather stoked about, as that my favorite song by them.

So that pretty much wraps up my life in the past couple of weeks. Tomorrow I'm putting my Christmas decorations with my Dad and then on Thursday I'm going to see Fucked Up again, so I proberly wont update this blog again till after that or even untill after Christmas. 

Bye. 

Life is Awesome.

Right so on Thursday I started my new job at Republic, which is awesome and it doesn't seem to be hard work, just boring. And It looks as though I'm going to be in the stockroom the majority of the time which is good I think, It means I have to spend less time getting annoyed by people. Which is always awesome. Another good thing is there isn't really a uniform, just no brand names that the store don't sell. I'm actually looking forward to starting work on Monday, I think I'm crazy.

Last night I got a couple of buses over to Brixton to see New Found Glory/Set Your Goals/Four Year Strong/Crime In Stereo. Which was really really good. I was one of the few people singing along to Crime In Stereo, which got me a few strange looks I'm sure. Next up were Four Year Strong, who impressed me alot, I think I might have to give this album another listen. Then Set Your Goals came on, I wasn't sure how they were gonna be on a stage this size, but they were awesome, the crowd was awesome, recognizing people in the middle of the pit and having "mosh chats" was awesome. Then the headliners came on, and they were really good, I didn't realize how many songs I knew by them, but I knew quite a few . The Gorilla Biscuits cover was brilliant.

Everything about this day was awesome. I think I use that word to much...

Fucked Up, in more ways than one.

I don't think any thing notable has happened since my last proper blog. This was until Thursday when I went to see Fucked up with The Shitty Limits and some other crappy band. For this gig I went to a Youth Center in Guilford, Surrey. Which was tiny and as you may be able to predict the gig was fucking mental. One of the best shows of my life hands down. They did a black flag cover which I went crazy for, and just made the show even better. Below a photo illiterates how fucking crazy this show was, I'm actually in the photo as well, well done if you can spot me!

Since then nothing exciting or interesting has really happened. All that has happened is me over-thinking the last 5 years and in some cases more, of my life. I released that I miss learning, and I'm not actually as stupid as I or other people think I am, and If I would have had help in the last few years of Secondary School, when I was severely Depressed (I'm not going to bullshit, I was seriously mentally ill) I could now the person I am capable of being. 

I also came to realize that I'm not and will never be completely fine, I'm always going to have this dark cloud over my head that will never completely go. Ive just go to get on with my life and make something of myself, which at the moment I'm not doing in the slightest. I also relised that during my childhood I wasn't as happy as I should have been, I think looking back I as depressed for alot lot longer than I have ever imagined. God, isn't mental health just a bundle of fucking fun?

I'm still Ill, I accept that, I just know how to cope. Listening to fast angry records, going to shows and writing in this blog helps me, so much. I can tell I'm tonnes better because things that would make me a crying mess before, hardly phase me, I'm well on the way to normality.

So are the BNP your friends?

http://wikileaks.org/leak/bnp-membership-list.txt
http://www.bnpmemberslist.co.uk/

That is a list of all the BNP members up and down the country.
Addresses and phone numbers,

So have a look and see if your friends and or family are members of a disgusting racist and homophobic organization as this.

Also have a bit of fun ;)

Fun, Fun, Fun and Job Interviews.

Right so on Friday night I introduced my Papa to his first Zombie Film, which he did not enjoy.. it was Resident Evil in case you are wondering.
Then Saturday arrived, and I had a job interview, which was at a clothes shop in the glorious town of Croydon. It went alright, but I doubt I will get it, I have to wait a while to find out anyway. But I wont get it, I know I wont.
I then went into London with my Pops and we went to Covent Garden for some lunch and had a little wander, which was lovely because I rarely get to spend time with my Dad like that anymore.
Then the evening arrived, and so did Lewis' 18th Pink Party, where as you may have guessed was where everyone and everything was pink. It was a brilliant, brilliant party, I haven't been to a party that good in ages. I kinda almost could have had a thing with a girl, but she went home just as I was ready to make my move and that. I don't even know how I got home, I think it could have been a glorious beer compass, which is slightly worrying yet amazing at the same time.
I then spent the entire Sunday recovering, and then Monday suddenly arrived with a Surprise Driving lesson, which didn't go as well as normal, but I did a 3 point turn.
I made about £27, of which I still have £10 left, because I have to post stuff and I still have a bit of stuff still up, but they don't have long left, but I may throw some more stuff up.

Laters.

Nothing really happens.

I haven't updated this for a while, mainly because I have done fuck all in the past few days. Driving about with my friends still hasn't got old. Infact driving still hasn't got old, I love it, it takes my mind off everything. I expect I will be book my Theory Test soon, which I'm feeling quietly confident about, which properly means, that knowing my luck, I wont past first time.

Ive spent the past few days watching films with my Father, because he is at home ill. Which is fun, once Ive actually found a film in my Brothers gigantic collection, that my Dad will actually enjoy and contains no Sex Scenes, because they are just too too awkward to watch with any family member. Today I slipped up with 300 which my Dad did not enjoy and had a throughly uncomfortable sex scene, which I tried to fast forward, but I just failed with it.

Yesterday I spent the day sorting through that massive amount of clothes that have collected on my Bedroom floor. Which you wouldn't think would be that many, but you don't know that I collect band tshirts (which sounds very weird, but it really isn't) and that I have approximately about 70, give or take. Thusly I don't have much space in my cupboards and drawers. I then spent the rest of the evening putting them up on Ebay, and a couple of 7"s.

Please have a bid, I'm broke;

http://shop.ebay.co.uk/merchant/drunkmonkeh

Car Drives and Mixtapes.

Yesterday one of my best friends (and incidentally a Ex Girlfriend) passed her driving test, so I spent most of yesterday driving around, which was so much fun. It made me realized how much I want to pass my test and get a car. So as  soon as possible I will be booking my theory test. My Parents said that as soon as I get a job, (which is proving harder than trying to disprove Religion) we can start looking at cars. Thusly I have spendn't the entire day looking at cars on the Motorway going "Oh that's a nice little car". I think I will either be getting a Citron Saxo or a Volkswagen Polo, or something in the same chavy region.

Right so a "make your own mixtape" thread poped up on a forum I go on. Its got about 24 tracks of Hardcore/Punk/Metal/Indie and a bit of Math Rock 

Get it from here: http://www.mediafire.com/?tztwdomxmzm

First Blog.

Right so this is my first ever proper blog, that Isn't a complete teenage angst fest. So I'll try and keep the angst out, but its bound to creep in sooner or later.

Right so I better start with the Basics, Well I'm Brit, I'm 17 and I live in South London/Surrey (on the border), UK. I'm Gay as you will properly see reflected in this blog with many a rant about how I'm still treated like a second class citizen and other things to that effect.

I go to alot of hardcore/punk/metal shows, and love the music, so you will properly be seeing alot about that in this blog.

Right so last night I went to the Stonewall awards and protested about their decision to nominate the Transphobe Julie Bindel for an award. There were about 150 of us, and about 10 Bindel Supporters.

There are a few articles floating about on the web, I know Pink News has a fair few.

So I think this will do, I may update this in  the next few days, or I may forget completely about it, who knows?